Heaven And Hell (My Story)

   

   Hello and peace be upon you dear readers. It's been a few months since I last wrote anything on this blog and now I feel kind of rusty. Anyway, I hope you're in good health and happy wherever you are. As for me, I'm back in hostel and trust me, the only thing I miss about this place is it's fast Wi-fi connection. Haha. But still, I'm thankful for I can finally update my blog. n_n

   I've been studying away from home for quite a number of years, more or less about 6 years now and staying home during holidays were never boring for me. Among all things I do during my holidays, there is one thing that I never missed in any of it. Reading. People asked me how can you keep doing that after all these years (it's not that long, LOL). Well, my answer is simple. Reading is inspiring. And I'm going to share with you one of the inspirations I got during my recent holiday.

   Have you ever heard of the book Have A Little Faith by Mitch Albom? It's a very nice book talking about the lives of two Men of God and how they, leading a simple life but managed to create a great community (and it's a true story). Being a Muslim, all the books I've ever read of this kind or genre are stories of Prophet Muhammad (pbuh), about his friends, about famous Muslim scholars etc. I am ashamed for being so narrow-minded. This book certainly changes the way I think about Christianity, Judaism, Hinduism, Buddhism and other religions therefore leading me to rethink about the concept of afterlife and of heaven and hell.

   Back in the year 2000, I remember being taught that Muslims go to heaven no matter how bad they are as long as they have even as much as a tiny speck of iman (faith) and all the non-Muslims will go to hell no matter how much good they do because they don't have iman. Of course there are other things such as purgatory etc but that can wait. At that time, I questioned nothing and I accepted it blindly. Just as my friends did, just as many other Muslims of my age did.

   However, reaching the age where I can think rationally, how can I accept that? It feels so unfair. I was questioning myself how can Allah (God) be so cruel? How can He do that to His own creations? I understand it if He punishes the wrong-doer but why punish the good non-Muslims too? But please be reminded, even though I have this kind of questions, not even once have I doubted Him or my religion. It's just that these questions lingered in my mind for a few years, unanswerable until fairly recently.

   I got interested in religious books (not limited to Muslim books only). I listen to tazkirah (preaches) more often. I listen to non-Muslims debates and preaches too. And I talked to everyone, Muslims and non-Muslims about my beliefs and their beliefs. After some time, I know a bit more about different religions. The questions I had were answered by many of those books, people, videos etc and the answer is actually pretty simple. Allah (God) is the Judge and we, the creations, cannot judge as He does. We cannot say this guy's bad, he will definitely go to hell, this guy's good, no worries for him, he'll definitely reach heaven. Simply said, let Allah (God) do His job, we do ours', that is to please Him by doing good to everyone and avoid doing anything He forbids.

" '...Our sages tell us to repent exactly one day before we die.'
But ho do you know it's the day before you die? I asked.
He raised his eyebrows.
'Exactly.' "

   As far as my limited knowledge allows, I don't think there is anyone who walks on this Earth and judge every single person he meets. "Hell, heaven, hell, hell, heaven..." If there is, I think the first one he should judge is himself. Remember, don't judge a person by his past or his present for he might change for the better in the near future and you might turn for the worst. Who knows.

   To conclude, do not worry about questioning your own religion because that is how you learn and I believe it strengthens your faith too. Learn to tolerate with others and help everyone no matter who they are. And here is a video for my friends who might be wondering what Islam has to say about this matter. Enjoy. That's all for tonight.Thanks for reading. Ciao.


~Jaw~

Naif

Hey guys. Peace be upon you. Wohoho. It's a cold night here in Kelantan. Thank God. All praises to Him since the drought has ended... I think. Anyway, this post here is... I don't know how to name it, it's not a pantun, sajak, seloka or whatever. Maybe I'll call this a story that rhymes*most of the time*? LOL. Anyway, it's based on a real life experience. Not mine alone, as I wrote this using many points of view. I'm not sure if the message can reach you or not but anyway, please enjoy it. n_n

   Seorang remaja mula mengenal dunia. Penuh dengan pancaroba tapi tak kurang juga bahagia. Hmm. Ironis sungguh, suka dalam duka dan sebaliknya. Awal hidupnya cuma bahagia. Apa diminta diberi semua biarpun ada kurangnya. Haha. Masih hijau kata orang-orang tua. Masakan dia mengenal duka hidup di negara nan bahagia. Ya ke? Satu persoalan kini bermain di benak fikirannya. Nampak benar naifnya dia.

   Namun, peristiwa-peristiwa suka dan duka bertambah, dirinya kian dewasa. Begitu banyak perkara yang dialaminya. Namun yang paling dia benci adalah kebenaran yang berselirat dengan dusta. Tapi, bukankah itu biasa dalam hidup di dunia? Setahunya, kebenaran satu cuma. Mana mungkin petak dipanggil bulat.Jika satu benar, satu lagi harusnya dusta. Tapi kata orang, lain perspektif lain lihatnya. Hmm. Benar juga. Lalu bagaimana?

   Sangkanya sudah masak dengan dunia, kini baru disengat bisa. Lihat di sini dan di sana. Penipuan merata-rata. Jauh lihat di sana, lupa pula yang dekat dengannya. Rasa sudah boleh percaya, muncul pula orang ketiga. Cerita dibawa ke telinga, lain benar dari yang pertama. Awalnya sudah dia tetapkan, sini baik, jahat di sana. Kini terpusing sepenuhnya. Menipu agaknya mereka semua. Jahat sungguh mereka. Marah akan tetapi terasa lucu pula. Haha. Dia juga sering memakai 'topeng' untuk menutup cacat-cela. Jadi, dia pun jahat juga?

   Kini dia antara dua. Perlukah dia percaya atau menidakkannya? Jika percaya, harus pada siapa? Si satu atau si dua? Jika dipilih si satu, adakah si dua terluka? Jika dipilih si dua, apa pula jadinya? Jika tidak percaya keduanya, sakitkah hati mereka? Bukankah untuk memberi kepercayaan itu milik mutlaknya? Lihatlah wahai sahabat, akan kebingungannya.

   Bukan dia tidak mahu percaya. Dia cuma seorang yang sedang pusing kepala. Naifnya dia buat dia silap menilai sahabatnya. Disangka kawan rupanya musuh yang punya sengketa. Naifnya dia buat dia silap menilai teman baiknya. Disangka kenal sebenar-benar kenal rupanya lakonan semata-mata. Naifnya dia buat dia silap menilai sesiapa. Disangka itu jahat, rupanya itu baik-baik sahaja. Benar juga pepatah Mat Panjang, jangan menilai buku melalui kulitnya. Maafkan dirinya kerana tersalah dan tersilap, bukannya sengaja. Buat pengajaran kita semua. Orang pandai belajar daripada kesilapannya, tapi orang yang bijak belajar daripada kesalahan orang di sekelilingnya.


~Jaw~

Aku Seorang Pelajar Perubatan

Hey guys. Peace be upon you. Ahhh, I feel so sleepy. I just slept for a while in the evening and stayed up the whole night decorating a hall for an event this morning. I bet I'll fall asleep right away even before the speech starts. LOL. Anyway, this post is actually a poem written by me. It has been in draft for a long time and it was supposed to stay as draft for a bit longer. However, since a friend of mine is going to interview for medical course in USM tomorrow, this poem is posted. It's not 100% finished actually but for now, let's make do with it. Enjoy. n_n

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